Losing Touch

And suddenly,
It was like a dream.
Foggy,
And distant.
Something,
I knew,
I would not,
Remember in the morning.
I was,
Much quieter,
Than usual.
Stranger,
Than usual.
As if,
I did not even,
Know who I was,
Anymore.
But,
What has happened to me?
I guess,
My spirit,
Was Lost.

Reality Is Here

Sirens flail,

People run,

I have failed,

And you are there.

Helpless,

Defenseless,

You are there,

Looking at me,

With a look,

Of fear.

I don't know,

What to do.

I just wish,

You had looked back,

Took my hand,

And walked away with me.

Daydreams fade,

Fantasy gone,

Nothing but reality.

But,

I won't give up,

On you.

Let those,

Sirens flail,

May those,

People run,

Go ahead,

Let me fail,

And even,

Let,

You lay there.

The only words,

That cross my mind,

Are;

I'm sorry.

And;

I love you.

One Solitary Life

He was born in a village.

He worked in a carpenter's shop until He was thirty.

He never held an office.

He never owned a home.

He never had a family.

He never went to college.

He never traveled far from home.

His friends betrayed Him.

He was nailed to a cross,

In between to thieves.

His exucutioners,

Gambeled on his only possesion;

A coat.

And now look at it,

He is "The central figure of the human race."

He's just Jesus.

Emotions Make You Laugh

Laughter,

Stormed out everywhere,

It was contagious.

Laughter,

Came out of me,

Exploding.

Laughter,

That makes you cry.

People,

Around me,

May have thought;

I was insane.

But,

Something Inisde of me,

Had just come out.

His laughter,

Made my laughter,

Even more hysterical.

It made you feel;

Happy,

And joyous.

I knew it,

Because of people's,

Crazed smiles.

I know when people are happy.

And they were happy!

Hooray!

This Will Last Forever

People thought,

I was stupid.

For,

Speaking to him.

But I knew,

He could hear me.

Even,

When he was inside,

I felt a connection.

There,

Was something holding us,

Together.

Something,

No matter what the pain,

Would hold us.

Something,

Powerful,

Tight,

Boundless.

I do not know,

If you understand,

But I feel strongly about this.

Something,

Does hold us together.

And,

Its powerful.

But,

Most importantly,

It's eternal.

No Human Being Could Ever Be This Cruel

When I hear her name,

I have no pity,

Just pure hatred.

I know,

This must sound simply atrocious,

But it is the truth,

And I will not lie to you.

(Lets get back to the poem.)

When,

I see her face on photos,

A fire burns,

Inside me,

That cannot be tamed.

When,

People speak of the,

Disgusting things she did,

I feel enfuriated.

Whenever,

Something reminds me of her,

I feel sorry,

For those whom,

She has caused pain.

Because,

I know she has caused pain.

Pain,

That can never be erased from anyone's memory.

Pain,

That will leave a mark,

Forever.

I know she,

Has a problem.

Because,

No human being,

Could ever be that cruel.

None.

There hearts,

Are broken.

Scattered.

If I knew something,

That could mend them.....

They were only children,

Waiting for her to love them,

But sadly she never did.

The Nightmare of Death

I had never been,

So terrified,

At a nightmare.

It might have been a nightmare,

but it seemed,

So realistic.

I could still feel,

The fear rushing through my body,

Making me weak,

And fragile.

I could,

See images,

Running through my head.

Spinning around,

In circles,

Turining faster and faster.

In the nightmare,

Death had come,

Like smoke,

Right there,

But untouchable.

She was picking flowers from the garden,

Looking as innocent as ever.

And death,

Had snoke up on her,

Teasing her,

Circiling around her,

Wrapping itself around her,

Until it would not release her.

She was,

As helpless as ever,

Weak,

And not even trying.

All of a sudden,

Like a savior,

I came running towards her,

Trying to bring her back,

Yelling at her,

Touching her,

But it was useless.

No,

Breathing.

No,

Smiling.

Just,

An expression,

Of pure,

Horror.

She,

Was,

DEad.

And I sat there trembiling,

next to her.

Waiting,

By any luck of chance,

That she might come back.

But she never did.

Never.

Love Has No Boundries

From the moment I laid eyes on him,

I knew I loved him.

Something about him,

That made him seem,

So loving.

The way,

We were so much alike.

The way,

He adored me.

At times,

My love for him,

May have seem twisted,

But only because,

The intensity of my love for him,

Had no boundries.

But our love for each other,

Is special.

It is not something,

You will find every day.

It's exceptional.

We love each other,

In such boundless ways,

In such obssesion-ess ways,

That it is far too complicated too understand.

But,

It's complicated because it's so simple;

We love each other.

And thats that.

Naive, Faithful Little Girl

You are scared for me.

Because you know I am naive.

You think people will get away,

from the pain they may cause me.

You worry,

Because of me.

About me.

For me.

You should know,

I am naive.

And I am scared,

No terrified.

I feel,

Like I cannot trust anyone.

No one.

Not even the people I thought I loved.

Sometimes I am hopeful,

hoping that I will have faith in someone.

Someone,

Who will not betray me,

Or cause me any sort of pain.

There are times,

When I look at you,

And you look at me.

And I wonder......

If you have faith in me?

Will,

You ever?

Now?

In the next life?

When?

For now,

I will be the one little girl.

Who is naive.

Terrified.

But,

I promise you this,

I was,

And will always be the "little girl",

Who had faith in you.

Now, it's your turn,

To look at me,

And answer the question.

You Left Something

Everytime you leave,

It seems like you take a part of me with you.

I watch you go,

sorrowfully, hoping one day you will stay.

When you're gone,

I feel broken.

Shattered.

I wish you would stay here with me.

Hug me.

Kiss me.

Teach me.

Love me.

When will be the day,

You come home?

And stay forever.

I miss you.

Can't you hear?!

I-Miss-You!!!

Until you come home,

You should know,

You left behind,

Someone who you said you loved.

Think about it.

Never Felt Like This

I could not remember the last time I felt like this;

Envious.

It had been a long time.

It seemed,

She was perfect.

Everything.

Anything.

....Something.

It was not the same kind of envious,

You would find in most teenage girls.

It was,

So much more than that.

Fury.

Jeolousy.

All of the above.

I wanted to scream.

I never felt like this.

Overall,

I felt angry at myself.

And

I guess that was the biggest thing of all.

Anger

And jelousy.

Aren't those two of the seven deadly sins? No,, I only think its jelousy. Hmmm...

Nothing Could Compare

I was wrapped around its clutches.

It was holding on to me tighter and tighter.

I tried to fight.

I tried to fight.

Harder.

And harder.

Faster.

And faster.

Stronger.

And stronger.

Until, finally I gave up.

I did not try;

Harder.

Or faster.

Not even,

To be stronger.

I just gave up.

After a while.

I withered.

And got fraile.

Up to the point.

Where I knew....

But suddenly.

I felt it.

Joy.

And peace.

And love.

A joy, peace, and love no human being could never give me.

Something,

So immense,

So vibrant,

And beautiful,

And full of happiness,

That nothing could ever compare to it.

Nothing.

And for the first time,

In a very long time,

I felt whole.

And well.