Hearbraking

This is for James.

I hope this makes you happy.

'Cause it sure does for me.

Well enjoy.

Oh and by the way I am watching "Narnia"...

Or something like that.

Watching them leave was rather heartbraking.

It left you with that big lump, where you so much feel like crying but you simply cannot.

I tried to look away but I knew how guilty I would feel if I did.

Times were getting difficult.

I could not complain.

Or act like a bitchy teenager.

Anything...

I had to be the perfect little angel I always am.

He held me tight.

Wondering if he was thinking what I was I held on even tighter.

They were way out of eye distance...

And I already missed them.

I wished both of them would turn around and realize how I felt.

I hoped that he would stop crying and and look at my face, which by the way was now tear stained.

But they just went on doing their daily routine.

And I the same.

All I ever wondered is if things would ever change.

The heartbreak.

The missing.

Everything.

Even before I had met him, I wondered.

Now I felt alone.

The wind blew.

It was chilly, and it gave me goose bumps.

I went inside...

Sad for a moment.

And then relaxed.

Forgeting everything.

Well...

That was good.

I hope you guys have an awesome Chirstmas.

I am not sure I will.

Hope so.

But for right now..

Good bye.

And I will study.

I promise.

You too, cousin.

Do well.

Smiling.

Laughing.

Joking.

Uhhh...

See yah!

"TURKEY!"

I hope you have figured out who I am.

Wink